give me more than i can take

 I want to sing til I throw out my voice, cry inconsolably and laugh wholeheartedly, I want to cut myself and save the world, I want to get in a fight. Love the whole world, and run for my life. I want the intensity of it all to make me dizzy and practically drunk on the wonderful terrible blinding brilliance of the intensity of life. I just need a reason. And it sounds mad, I know, I’m exhausted and bored of the grey and black life I’ve always seen, but color is out there, I know it. I can bleed red and sing to the blue sky and stain my knees on the grass. Is something wrong with me? Am I wrong for wanting more, more, more? This is all news to me, I just started typing and here I am. How strange this sounds.